Time

It's been a long time since the last time I wrote here and a lot of things happened.
First I met lots of different people, I fell in love again and for the first time, a guy really had broken my heart.
I think I broke his heart first, and the only thing he wanted was the revenge. I don't blame him for that, but I do 'cause he did it in a really bad way.
I only wanted to thank him for all the moments he has gave me, and say to him he's not in my mind anymore, apart from the thoughts I have about him finding a girl who really can stand him, 'cause actually the last time I was with him he didn't treat me really good.
Anyway, I'm also glad he introduced me to his cousin. He's been kind of my support for a long time. He is a really good guy and I'm sorry some bad things are happening to him.

I hope I'll write more here since now :)

Peace guys xXxX

New Beginnings

School starts, life changes and we learn how to live better, with no fear, no stupid loves...
And that's why I'm writting now. I know you won't notice this, but from my heart I say you "thanks" and "see you soon". I hope we'll meet one day, I'll say you "hello" in your city, and I hope you'll receive me with one smile, and like James Blunt says "I hope someday we'll meet, and talk and not just speak".
I feel I have to grow up, and continue my life, continue looking for the right person to stay with me. If you are not here, with me right now, it's for something.
I have to say that I'll never forget those moments with you, those stupid conversations and the way you smile when I say something stupid. I hope you won't forget me and the way I whistled at you.
If one day I show you this, I wish it will put a smile in your face.
Really, thanks.
I love you friend :)

Peace guys s2s2

I love you, at least, never forget me

Do you know that feeling where you think you've lost the most important thing in this world? where you feel you really would like to be with the person you like, but it's impossible because you did something you can't fix? where you feel in the future you won't like anyone else because the love of your life was that person?
THAT'S HOW I FEEL
It hurts... see how he acts like nothing happened, see you won't talk to him anymore. It's like I've lost a huge piece of my life, of my body, of my soul...
And I try to meet more boys, I try to be nice with them, and find one who I deserve, a really good boy, but... then reason I fell in love with him was the way he acted, and no boy acts like him.

I hope I'll forget him, and I'll find a boy who I deserve and who deserves me :)

Peace guys! s2

Waiting

These days I didn't think a lot about him... but then I came home, and all the memories came to my mind.
I still love him... how can I say I don't?
I'm still waiting for him to ask me why I deleted him, I'm still waiting for him to say me "baby, never leave me, I love you", I'm still waiting for one of his friends to say me "he's not feeling well, since you delete him and you don't talk to him, he acts so stupid"... but will it happen? why can't I stop thinking of him? why can't stop thinking of meet him and give him all I have? I've never met him, how do I know I love him?
There are a lot of questions in my mind...m and the'll never be anwsered...

NICE AGE

I feel super good!!! I've deleted him on msn and on facebook, so now I don't feel I want to talk to him. I wish him the best, and I hope he will find his ideal girl, the girl who will make him happy. Of course, I still would like to be that girl, but I know I'll be strong, and I've almost forgotten him :)
If I go to England next year, I'll meet him. He won't expect me, but I'll find him, I'm so sure.
Well, and apart from that, I was talking to a boy from poland, but he was so stupid, and he reminded me about the english one. The polish one said me he won't be my friend because he's 19 and I'm 14!! I wonder what they think, I mean, only 5 years! and he thinks he's so old! come on! haha

Peace guys! s2

What should I think?

These days I feel so stupid... one minute I'm happy and the next minute I feel like a big bag of shit.
I want to say him I love him, I want to ask him a lot of things, I want to say him he's being so stupid with the person who likes him... but I think he wouldn't care, he wouldn't be worried for my words. He talks to a lot of beautiful girls, why should he like me when he can choose between these girls and me?
I miss our stupid and funny conversations about aliens, about his smile and about how to kill him. I miss his smile so much. But if I ask him to turn his webcam on, he would say no.
And the worst thing about this situation is that he makes me get so angry when he doesn't anwser because I feel like I0m bothering him.
I guess you're going to say: how do you know this? It's easy, His behaviour shows it perfectly.
GOD! Let me be strong enough!
Peace guys! s2

For you :)

hey! hey! Yeah, I'm talking with you. I'll never forget you, but, at the moment, I need to ignore you as posible as I can. I'll die if I don't stop this... so, BYE BYE, be sure I love you and we'll meet one day, maybe in a year, if my heart doesn't hurt like it does now.

LOVE YOU