The Present

What the fuck is going on in my life? I mean, how can life change this fast? 5 months ago I was saying goodbye to that guy (who I was so stupid to believe in, cause he was just an asshole from the very first moment), and now I like this new one...
And I don't even know what to do with him. I like him, I guess he likes me, but I'm not even sure. We're supposely dating, but most part of the time it feels like he doesn't care about me, and FUCK! I'm tired of caring about people who don't give a fuck about me. (Sorry for saying "fuck" a lot).
I love when I'm with him, he kisses me and he's so caring. And I remember all the times I've been with him and they were kinda perfect but now... School started and I almost can't see him. I feel like shit, cause I want him beside me, kissing me all the time and hugging me like there's no tomorrow...
But then, I hear all my friends like "Omg! Yes my boyfriend was like this to me" and I'm like "yeah, mine did this...". It feels like we're not a coupe, like we're just friends who have kissed... like we're not meant to be together. And I'm always asking myself what to do, and I don't find the anwser. I'd love to stay with him, but it's hurting me so much to have him far away.

Sorry for being so bothering, or well, no one read this so... it's ok.

Peace <3 p="p">