New Beginnings

School starts, life changes and we learn how to live better, with no fear, no stupid loves...
And that's why I'm writting now. I know you won't notice this, but from my heart I say you "thanks" and "see you soon". I hope we'll meet one day, I'll say you "hello" in your city, and I hope you'll receive me with one smile, and like James Blunt says "I hope someday we'll meet, and talk and not just speak".
I feel I have to grow up, and continue my life, continue looking for the right person to stay with me. If you are not here, with me right now, it's for something.
I have to say that I'll never forget those moments with you, those stupid conversations and the way you smile when I say something stupid. I hope you won't forget me and the way I whistled at you.
If one day I show you this, I wish it will put a smile in your face.
Really, thanks.
I love you friend :)

Peace guys s2s2

I love you, at least, never forget me

Do you know that feeling where you think you've lost the most important thing in this world? where you feel you really would like to be with the person you like, but it's impossible because you did something you can't fix? where you feel in the future you won't like anyone else because the love of your life was that person?
THAT'S HOW I FEEL
It hurts... see how he acts like nothing happened, see you won't talk to him anymore. It's like I've lost a huge piece of my life, of my body, of my soul...
And I try to meet more boys, I try to be nice with them, and find one who I deserve, a really good boy, but... then reason I fell in love with him was the way he acted, and no boy acts like him.

I hope I'll forget him, and I'll find a boy who I deserve and who deserves me :)

Peace guys! s2

Waiting

These days I didn't think a lot about him... but then I came home, and all the memories came to my mind.
I still love him... how can I say I don't?
I'm still waiting for him to ask me why I deleted him, I'm still waiting for him to say me "baby, never leave me, I love you", I'm still waiting for one of his friends to say me "he's not feeling well, since you delete him and you don't talk to him, he acts so stupid"... but will it happen? why can't I stop thinking of him? why can't stop thinking of meet him and give him all I have? I've never met him, how do I know I love him?
There are a lot of questions in my mind...m and the'll never be anwsered...

NICE AGE

I feel super good!!! I've deleted him on msn and on facebook, so now I don't feel I want to talk to him. I wish him the best, and I hope he will find his ideal girl, the girl who will make him happy. Of course, I still would like to be that girl, but I know I'll be strong, and I've almost forgotten him :)
If I go to England next year, I'll meet him. He won't expect me, but I'll find him, I'm so sure.
Well, and apart from that, I was talking to a boy from poland, but he was so stupid, and he reminded me about the english one. The polish one said me he won't be my friend because he's 19 and I'm 14!! I wonder what they think, I mean, only 5 years! and he thinks he's so old! come on! haha

Peace guys! s2

What should I think?

These days I feel so stupid... one minute I'm happy and the next minute I feel like a big bag of shit.
I want to say him I love him, I want to ask him a lot of things, I want to say him he's being so stupid with the person who likes him... but I think he wouldn't care, he wouldn't be worried for my words. He talks to a lot of beautiful girls, why should he like me when he can choose between these girls and me?
I miss our stupid and funny conversations about aliens, about his smile and about how to kill him. I miss his smile so much. But if I ask him to turn his webcam on, he would say no.
And the worst thing about this situation is that he makes me get so angry when he doesn't anwser because I feel like I0m bothering him.
I guess you're going to say: how do you know this? It's easy, His behaviour shows it perfectly.
GOD! Let me be strong enough!
Peace guys! s2

For you :)

hey! hey! Yeah, I'm talking with you. I'll never forget you, but, at the moment, I need to ignore you as posible as I can. I'll die if I don't stop this... so, BYE BYE, be sure I love you and we'll meet one day, maybe in a year, if my heart doesn't hurt like it does now.

LOVE YOU

Delete or not delete, that's the question

I'm confused... what can I do? I deleted him on msn, and I want to delete him on facebook, but my mind is a mess right now. Half of my mind wants to delete him, because I feel I don't need him, he was stupid with me, we don't talk, so it's a waste of space to have him there... but the other half still thinks: and waht if he suddenly wants to talk with me and he can't because I've deleted him?
I hope I'll find the anwser soon. Please, God, help me :)
Apart from that, I'm happy. I did some exercise and I feel happy listening to music I didn't listen since a lot of time.
Peace Guys! :)

First Lesson: Friends First

Today I've learnt a really important lesson: no boy matter if you have friends.
Since the moment I met the girl who he is talking to, I realized it's all his fault and it don't worth it to think she's stupid, because the only one who is stupid here is him.
Talking with my friends, I saw I have really great friends, making jokes everytime we can, saying stupid things (like: I speak to face of pig because he's so hot :P) and being crazy.
And of course, talking to my twin, I could see she makes me happy, and I only need my friends to be happy, because they are all and they make me smile every single time they can :)
Thank you girls!!! Thank you boys (only friends :P)!!

Strange Day

I was happy the whole morning. I just woke up, and I saw my English scores. I know it's not so polite, but I have to say that they are so good. The highest score was 25, and I got 22 23 21 and 24. Then I went to school and I saw my scores, so good too.
But... my life is not complete. It's not all about success, I need to be happy in other way, love way. I know it's stupid, and that I'm so young to think a lot about love, but I need to be ok with that boy. I want him back, because I can't understand what happened. All was ok, and suddenly, all was wrong. A few days ago I discovered he talks to other girl, and the worse parts are that I can't say him: "why are you talking with this girl?", because he wasn't my boyfriend, and that he said we were going to be FRIENDS FOREVER.
The only thing I wish is he's not dating her. He said he wouldn't like to date a girl who he only knows from the internet so...
Please, God, Help me

Thanks

I won't start saying what I will talk about, because there's not a particular thing I will talk about. I will just say what I want to say, that's all.
So... The first thing I will say is...
THANKS!
Thanks to the people I really love and who they love me, because they allways support me, if I'm sad or If I'm happy, and they allways have some fun for me.
Thanks to the people who hates me, because they make me stronger everyday.
Thanks to the people who saw me crying and said "hey! are you ok?" even when they weren't my friends, because that means they are good people.
Thanks to the boys who has never payed attention to me and I've always loved, because they make me suffer everyday, but with them I felt what's love. Specially one (I would like to say his name, but I think it's not so appropiate), who always was so cute and funny, but now he doesn't talk to me. I don't know why and I would like to.
Thanks to all the people who made me learn something, because they made my brain and my personality every single time.
And, of course, thanks to music, because it helps me when I need it, and it doesn't get angry with me.

Peace guys s2