Waiting

These days I didn't think a lot about him... but then I came home, and all the memories came to my mind.
I still love him... how can I say I don't?
I'm still waiting for him to ask me why I deleted him, I'm still waiting for him to say me "baby, never leave me, I love you", I'm still waiting for one of his friends to say me "he's not feeling well, since you delete him and you don't talk to him, he acts so stupid"... but will it happen? why can't I stop thinking of him? why can't stop thinking of meet him and give him all I have? I've never met him, how do I know I love him?
There are a lot of questions in my mind...m and the'll never be anwsered...

NICE AGE

I feel super good!!! I've deleted him on msn and on facebook, so now I don't feel I want to talk to him. I wish him the best, and I hope he will find his ideal girl, the girl who will make him happy. Of course, I still would like to be that girl, but I know I'll be strong, and I've almost forgotten him :)
If I go to England next year, I'll meet him. He won't expect me, but I'll find him, I'm so sure.
Well, and apart from that, I was talking to a boy from poland, but he was so stupid, and he reminded me about the english one. The polish one said me he won't be my friend because he's 19 and I'm 14!! I wonder what they think, I mean, only 5 years! and he thinks he's so old! come on! haha

Peace guys! s2

What should I think?

These days I feel so stupid... one minute I'm happy and the next minute I feel like a big bag of shit.
I want to say him I love him, I want to ask him a lot of things, I want to say him he's being so stupid with the person who likes him... but I think he wouldn't care, he wouldn't be worried for my words. He talks to a lot of beautiful girls, why should he like me when he can choose between these girls and me?
I miss our stupid and funny conversations about aliens, about his smile and about how to kill him. I miss his smile so much. But if I ask him to turn his webcam on, he would say no.
And the worst thing about this situation is that he makes me get so angry when he doesn't anwser because I feel like I0m bothering him.
I guess you're going to say: how do you know this? It's easy, His behaviour shows it perfectly.
GOD! Let me be strong enough!
Peace guys! s2

For you :)

hey! hey! Yeah, I'm talking with you. I'll never forget you, but, at the moment, I need to ignore you as posible as I can. I'll die if I don't stop this... so, BYE BYE, be sure I love you and we'll meet one day, maybe in a year, if my heart doesn't hurt like it does now.

LOVE YOU

Delete or not delete, that's the question

I'm confused... what can I do? I deleted him on msn, and I want to delete him on facebook, but my mind is a mess right now. Half of my mind wants to delete him, because I feel I don't need him, he was stupid with me, we don't talk, so it's a waste of space to have him there... but the other half still thinks: and waht if he suddenly wants to talk with me and he can't because I've deleted him?
I hope I'll find the anwser soon. Please, God, help me :)
Apart from that, I'm happy. I did some exercise and I feel happy listening to music I didn't listen since a lot of time.
Peace Guys! :)

First Lesson: Friends First

Today I've learnt a really important lesson: no boy matter if you have friends.
Since the moment I met the girl who he is talking to, I realized it's all his fault and it don't worth it to think she's stupid, because the only one who is stupid here is him.
Talking with my friends, I saw I have really great friends, making jokes everytime we can, saying stupid things (like: I speak to face of pig because he's so hot :P) and being crazy.
And of course, talking to my twin, I could see she makes me happy, and I only need my friends to be happy, because they are all and they make me smile every single time they can :)
Thank you girls!!! Thank you boys (only friends :P)!!

Strange Day

I was happy the whole morning. I just woke up, and I saw my English scores. I know it's not so polite, but I have to say that they are so good. The highest score was 25, and I got 22 23 21 and 24. Then I went to school and I saw my scores, so good too.
But... my life is not complete. It's not all about success, I need to be happy in other way, love way. I know it's stupid, and that I'm so young to think a lot about love, but I need to be ok with that boy. I want him back, because I can't understand what happened. All was ok, and suddenly, all was wrong. A few days ago I discovered he talks to other girl, and the worse parts are that I can't say him: "why are you talking with this girl?", because he wasn't my boyfriend, and that he said we were going to be FRIENDS FOREVER.
The only thing I wish is he's not dating her. He said he wouldn't like to date a girl who he only knows from the internet so...
Please, God, Help me